coupleluvirporn2010
Member
I'm now working on my third relationship. I broke up with my ex-fiance and my last girlfriend eventually left me for a black guy in my building. I'm addicted to ir porn but am finding the women I attract by this lifestyle all end up cheating on me and disrespecting. I keep thinking I'm going to assert myself but I back down every time I catch my girlfriend having sex with black guys. I'm still in therapy and still getting at the root of what my therapist calls latent racism on my part. She says my hidden racism fuels my fear of black men and my guilt prevents me from protesting to my girlfriends when I catch them fucking black guys. My latest girlfriend has been cheating on me with a black guy at her gym. At first the guy seemed to be unsure of me but now he doesn't seem to care what I think and openly flirts with my girlfriend at our apartment. He works out with her at our apartment all the time, even though I've caught her sucking his dick and fucking him quite a few times now. I don't know if I'm fooling myself or what but this dude is eating me out of house and home and yet I'm too afraid to confront him head on. My gf says she still loves me and says sorry everytime I catch her fucking around. He says sorry too and then keeps doing it. It's very confusing.
