To my shame, I was an idiot as a youth. I was racist. When I was 14, I was given a video by a friend....I think it was called Taboo or Last Taboo. There was a scene with sexiest, I thought, white girl and a black man....he was by far the most hung man, in the film. I was angry, jealous, confused and hugely turned on. From that point on I avoided IR porn. Until I was at University, I was bored, skint and avoiding lectures. On the way back from the student union, I was walking behind a dude and something feel out of his bag. It was a porn mag called Whitehouse. I thought it home thinking it was my lucky day. Centre spread.....Sean Michaels and his monster wang and a sexy white slut. I fought it but soon I masturbating over it....every spare moment. I was hooked. It has become an obsession