Cindy85251
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Does anyone fear that they might be recognized by someone they know if they post here? Or is that part of the allure?
Cindy85251 said:Does anyone fear that they might be recognized by someone they know if they post here? Or is that part of the allure?
Cindy85251 said:Does anyone fear that they might be recognized by someone they know if they post here? Or is that part of the allure?
KKKbitch said:Cindy85251 said:Does anyone fear that they might be recognized by someone they know if they post here? Or is that part of the allure?
No, i'm from germany and i live in a major city. There are not many germans on this site. And the ones who are here, don't know me in RL.
On second thought i'm looking forward to the moment an old white guy see me on the street and ask me if i am the niggerlovin' nazigirl from the internet ;D
BraBaBe said:It's completely natural and totally understandable to be afraid.
If any girl were to claim she had absolutely no fear and no nerves about "coming out" then I'd say she's either impressively thick-skinned, or she's lying.
When I went through it, I had no support network whatsoever, nobody I could trust, and nobody I could turn to or talk to.
I felt completely alone, and I was more miserable, depressed and unhappy during that period than at any other time in my life.
I don't want anyone else to ever go through that.
I think it falls to everyone here to offer as much help, support and friendship as possible to anyone who is worried or nervous about it.
I certainly will be only too glad to help anyone if I possibly can.
These days, everybody who knows me knows about my preferences, and if it's a problem, then it's their problem.
Zagg said:I'm sure that almost everyone here wants to be as helpful as possible to those "coming out". And also to those who aren't coming out, who prefer to have a double life: mild-mannered wives in public, black-dick sucking sluts in private.
Zagg,
I've been the "mild-mannered wife in public......" and sucked a few black dicks over the past couple of years in private. I just have this yearning inside not to hide it anymore and am not sure how to proceed.
Cindy
Cindy85251 said:Zagg said:I'm sure that almost everyone here wants to be as helpful as possible to those "coming out". And also to those who aren't coming out, who prefer to have a double life: mild-mannered wives in public, black-dick sucking sluts in private.
Zagg,
I've been the "mild-mannered wife in public......" and sucked a few black dicks over the past couple of years in private. I just have this yearning inside not to hide it anymore and am not sure how to proceed.
Cindy
Cindy85251 said:Zagg et al,
I'd love to hear some advice on just how to tell my husband. I know that sounds strange since I've been married to him for 25 years.
I was raised in an extremely prejudiced household. His family is even more prejudiced, if that's possible. He has carried much of that through his life. I don't know a way to tell him without him blowing up.
I can't remotely imagine that he'd be OK with it - and shame on me for submitting in the first place - but I did it and I don't think I can stop myself from continuing. The addiction to the risk/thrill/taboo of being a married white woman who loves to suck black dick is very powerful!!!
I have limited my "dates" to oral sex as I worry about getting pregnant, yet I crave the feeling of submitting and of giving pleasure to black men by offering my hands and mouth to them. I don't know how much longer I can resist before I totally submit and let them have all of me.
My 2 children are grown (23 and 19) and able to make their own choices at this time, i.e., I don't worry about the effects of any of this on them.
I am very active in the PTA and several other volunteer community and charitable organizations, so I have to be aware of the impact on that work.
I feel stuck in a very difficult position.
Thanks in advance for any advice.
Cindy
Cindy85251 said:Zagg,
Thanks for your kind words.
No, I have not cheated with white men before (no offense, I hope)....only black....and it's only been over the past couple of years.
My sister is 2 years older than me, and after she was divorced 4 years ago she started dating black men and telling about "hot" some of her encounters were. As I alluded to in my last post, much of the initial lure to me was to do something "bad" or "wrong", i.e., something very out of character - basically on a dare from her.
But what I found was that by submitting and giving pleasure to these black men, I found a fulfillment I'd never felt before. So it went from a "dare" to a "need".
I can't stop. I know that now.
There's a thrill I can't describe when I see the look on a black man's face when a rich, prim and proper, white (married) woman (me) is kneeling before him and whose only purpose at that moment in time is to suck the cum from his black dick. Many times it's like he can't believe what is acutally happening. I feel both power and vulnerability at the same time - a very arousing combination.
I'll keep you posted.
Cindy
BraBaBe said:It's completely natural and totally understandable to be afraid.
If any girl were to claim she had absolutely no fear and no nerves about "coming out" then I'd say she's either impressively thick-skinned, or she's lying.
When I went through it, I had no support network whatsoever, nobody I could trust, and nobody I could turn to or talk to.
I felt completely alone, and I was more miserable, depressed and unhappy during that period than at any other time in my life.
I don't want anyone else to ever go through that.
I think it falls to everyone here to offer as much help, support and friendship as possible to anyone who is worried or nervous about it.
I certainly will be only too glad to help anyone if I possibly can.
These days, everybody who knows me knows about my preferences, and if it's a problem, then it's their problem.
You said it best brababe!
Cindy85251 said:Zagg et al,
I'd love to hear some advice on just how to tell my husband. I know that sounds strange since I've been married to him for 25 years.
I was raised in an extremely prejudiced household. His family is even more prejudiced, if that's possible. He has carried much of that through his life. I don't know a way to tell him without him blowing up.
I can't remotely imagine that he'd be OK with it - and shame on me for submitting in the first place - but I did it and I don't think I can stop myself from continuing. The addiction to the risk/thrill/taboo of being a married white woman who loves to suck black dick is very powerful!!!
..........
Thanks in advance for any advice.
Cindy
its_michelle1990 said:I personally would never post photos in a forum like this.
I generally am willing to send photos by e-mail if anyone is interested though!
its_michelle1990 said:I personally would never post photos in a forum like this.
I generally am willing to send photos by e-mail if anyone is interested though!
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